To Flee From Light

"I'm not complete without my struggle to control my mind."

So be it, I’m charmed by the light

For it beckons and calls me forth

It’s not hostile, it’s not forceful

It laughs when I smile and it cries when I frown

Oh, I wish I could be more joyful then

So that I may reflect all of it’s passion

So that I’m not just a figure on it’s ground

I run to keep up with it and when I leap forward and let go of all my life,

I fail to catch it

Instead I fall to my knees, bruised and worn

High time for me to give up chasing the light.

Maybe if I stop running towards it, it will just find me

But I’m too reckless to choose that path

I’m not patient and I become blind to the good

I keep guard of the weapons I’ve carried for so long

And the darkness soon feels pleasant, when I cuddle up close I forget about the light in a deep lustful desire towards the dark

Dark doesn’t run from me, dark doesn’t make me feel invaluable

So I’m validated in my wrongs and I’m subsequently awful from no correction

Light loses it’s enigma and I drown in the abyss of nothing, unchanged in my ways

And left to die with stories untold and happiness unclaimed.